scary stuff that i need to let off my chest... i find out tomorrow (or at least, i start the process of finding out) if something a doctor found in me is cancerous. i've been waiting a LONG ASS TIME, for months on end, but the FUCKED UP HMO system made it wayyy more complicated than it should have been. i even had a mini-breakdown from the frustration of even trying to be SEEN by a specialist. i get to be SEEN tomorrow.... finally. *hold breath*