great fight, korea. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! =)

janet is up blogging this early in the morning because...
a) for the hell of it
b) she is in a different time zone
c) she remembers being told that training for Upward Bound, the summer pgm i'll be an RA for again, started today at 8am, but it actually starts tomorrow.

alright, while i'm on this, my top 3 freakiest movies of all time: (random huh?)
1) wizard of oz
2) alice in wonderland (many friends concur that lewis was on drugs)
3) willy wonka and the chocolate factory

i'm packing my life away into little boxes!!! i have so much stuff it's not even funny. =/ goodbye san diego... well not quite yet. but in terms of all my goodies, it's a goodbye. next time i unpack all my things, it'll be in my new apt in LA. =*( y'all better come visit me. but for now... time to get rollin.

holy mother, GO KOREA!!! who would've guessed?? to be honest i expected spain to win. if i had to bet i would have put my money on them. korea... what underdogs. this is the farthest up that any asian country has ever gone in the world cup. =) makin history... for those of u who didn't watch the game. my god i was shitting bricks. 0 - 0 the whole game, went into overtime twice, and it all came down to penalty kicks. both teams were makin them in, until the 4th shot when korea blocked that mofo. tha's right. =) helloOoOooOOoo~ semifinals! playing germany next. tuesday 4:30am. YAY! DAE HAN MEEN GOOK!

vegas, baby!!!

ever look yourself up on google.com? it's really scary the things that come up. type in "janet lee ucsd" and u learn a lot about my life. it's freaky. ucsd orgs, apsa, korean drumming... and type in "dorkyjanet" and my blogger comes up. it's really weird, but yeah it makes sense. other ppl's bloggers come up too if they mentioned you. hehe.. it's fun to do. look up your friends! stalk ppl! (thanx casey =) u dork. too much time on your hands.) dangit. see what i do now that i'm done with school??

do i feel graduated? kinda.. i certainly feel the summer atmosphere all around me, though. it doesn't feel like i necessarily FINISHED college, but that i simply finished another year. i was celebrating with my roomies and good friends last nite and it seemed like we were celebrating the completion of the school year. almost everytime we toasted we would toast to the graduates. it's pretty crazy. so yeah i got pretty faded for the first time in about 2 years. how many shots did i have?? well it was a lot. =P

for everyone graduating in the future, put on plenty of sunblock! i got a mean line across my forehead from my cap, and my face is nice and burned. designating a place for my friends to meet worked out really well too. it was very cool cuz we all found each other and were able to take pictures together. =) and it worked out. i'm just happy about it. hehe. thank u to everyone who came out to show their love. i need to get me one of those foghorns for future graduations. oh, and i really liked Muir's order of calling students. they had it alphabetized by major and last name. marshall's was completely random so u had no idea who was going to be called next. =/ oh well, ppl heard so it was all good.

congrats to all the fellow graduates!! =) and happy summer!!!

i am graduating tomorrow. talk about a milestone in life. my parents will be walking alongside me to celebrate this very special day. =) i love them like crazy and i can't thank them enough for making this day possible. i'm going to be a graduate!!!

well. i did it. i cried. it's definitely the music that did it. i'm going to be unsad now. (yes i'm going to be a teacher)

shit.
i'm terribly nostalgic right now. oh my gosh... it's hitting me deep inside my chest too. i can literally feel it hurting. =*( i've been lying here on my bed for a while now just thinking about everything and how sad i am that this huge chapter in my life is coming to a close. i tutored my last day at King Elem. today.. for 4.5 hours. i just couldn't leave. i went through so many emotions today alone. one girl gave me her Pooh book "Good as Gold." when my host teacher announced that there was a special surprise, i went up to the class to announce my last day and to pass out candy. one boy said, "this is a sad surprise..." =*( what is a girl to do ?? yesterday was supposed to be my last day at Preuss, but i couldn't do it. i'm going back tomorrow and that'll be my last day. really it will. i can't take this. i'm feeling so... empty. shit this really really sucks. listening to these songs aren't helping either.... =**( make it STOP. someone stop time NOW.

ok here's the deal. APSA, listen up! after marshall's ceremony, we'll be meeting towards the center of the field on the right hand side (if u'r facing the front). this is tentative, but i don't know why it would change. =) so everyone, MEET THERE! i don't know how many ppl actually still read my blog, but yes. if u'r reading this now, spread the word. come to the graduation together, carpool, come about half an hour earlier, all that good stuff. =) love u guys madly. *muah!*

poor france. defending champions and they got creamed by denmark. not to mention... NO POINTS this entire world cup. unheard of. no really, it's unheard of. defending champions never having made any points... never happened before. the game was awesome, so was usa vs. korea (tie). =)

i made almond jelly w/ fruit for my roomies. since i'm done, i had some time to make some treats for them! if u want, u TOO can
have some! just come over soon before the boys eat em all up.. which will most likely happen. again, best of luck on finals everyone!!!

doRkYjaNeT: kim should be sending out a mass emial to APSA to designate a meetign place on the field so that we're not all scrambling to find one another [after graduation ceremony]
Peppyshoe: wow
Peppyshoe: all planned out, ic
Peppyshoe: apsa cheering section
oRkYjaNeT: u konw everyone is always looking for one another afterwards in the sea of ppl
doRkYjaNeT: might as well all get together
Peppyshoe: ha haa h ah
Peppyshoe: we'll have out the apsa banner
doRkYjaNeT: hahahahhahahaha
Peppyshoe: break into a dance routine
doRkYjaNeT: HAHAAHAHAH~!~

doRkYjaNeT: finals treating u ok?
movelvet49: u?
doRkYjaNeT: u don't wanna know
movelvet49: :-(
movelvet49: :-(:-(
doRkYjaNeT: why the sad faces?
movelvet49: FOR YOU!
doRkYjaNeT: why?
doRkYjaNeT: if anything they should be for yourself
movelvet49: you no have fun with finals
doRkYjaNeT: i don't deserve sad faces
doRkYjaNeT: no no
doRkYjaNeT: i say u don't want to know because...
doRkYjaNeT: well why don't u ask
movelvet49: why dont i wanna know
doRkYjaNeT: go ahead ask
movelvet49: youre done
movelvet49: ??!?!?!?
doRkYjaNeT: :-D
movelvet49: BUTTHEAD!
doRkYjaNeT: i TOLD u u dont wanna know!!!
movelvet49: POO

for all u ppl out there. i'm sorry, but yes i am done. my heart goes out to all u suckers.. i mean, friends out there who still have a few finals left to go. hang in there, troopers! =) i'm there with ya. (ok, i'm just saying this stuff to make u feel better. i'm sorry but i deserve it!!!) =) =) =) no worries, we'll be partying in no time. GOOD LUCK ON FINALS!!! and CONGRATS, fellow GRADUATES!

oh my gosh i'm done. my 13 pages are printing as we speak. i'm done. my last final.. that was it. time to take it over and drop it in the box... and then. i'm done. O_O (with time to spare, that's an accomplishment itself!)

my roommate and i talking about our bathroom:
Fob226: with the sucker thing
Fob226: it was loud
doRkYjaNeT: sucker thing?
doRkYjaNeT: wha'ts that
doRkYjaNeT: oh hahhahahahhahaha
doRkYjaNeT: the vent?
doRkYjaNeT: SUCKER THING. hahahhahah

finals madness kicks in what am i saying? i only have one and it's due at 4:30. and then i'm OFFICIALLY DONE. O_O

Aldrin's Top 10 Grad Banquet Moments:

10) driving to Ronnel's place
aldrin: where are you
ronnel: right there i see you, slow down
aldrin: *speeds by, not seeing him*
ronnel: #*%@!)%$%#&*$#

9) looking at the green room
vic: ok you're all in here
josh: alright, co-ed green room !!!

8) green room again
janet: *entering*
janet: hey guys i wa.......
(josh has no pants on
janet: *covers eyes*
janet: *runs out of room*

7) taking pictures
all guys: hey don't count, everyone just shoot at once
*everyone shoots at once*
*59430284 flash bulbs combine to make one giant flash*
all guys: AAAAAAAAAA

6) during the dance
terry: *dancing*
moneek: *goes to terry*
moneek: *begins dancing*
terry: *starts doing some funky arm thing*
moneek: ........ :-(
moneek: *hugs*
moneek: *walks away*

5) at Copy Club afterward
aldrin: k i'm out everyone
aldrin: *shaking hands only*
susan: *wants hug*
susan: .....
susan: eww you're all sweaty
aldrin: that's why i was giving handshakes

4) dance floor
jel: hey go for it
aldrin: you seriously think you can beat me cWalking?
jel: bring it
david: ohhhhh we got a battle going

3) taking pictures
janet: hey guys get in the picture
janet: *standing in between five guys*
jason: ........
few minutes later
janet: hey take a picture
janet: *in between more guys*
jason: i don't like these pictures
jason: don't you have any girl friends

2) senior awards
janet: *walking up to get award*
everyone: whoo, owww, whistling
jason: stop it
jason: *stares at everyone*

1) talking to Cat on camera
aldrin: *holding camera out, pointing at Cat*
cat: could you point a little higher?
aldrin: ?
cat: you were filming my breasts
aldrin: ......

i'm the biggest dork alive. i don't know what has come over me. i've been terribly sad and nostalgic this past week. i don't know what it is.. but something is just making me so sad. i just rented my cap & gown just now. i was so sad i had to call my mom. when i started talking to her that's when i lost it. my eyes got watery and i started to tear. i told her how sad i was and i was crying! i told her how i couldn't believe 4 years had already gone and that i didn't want to leave, and how i had wrapped up so many things this past week. everything is coming to a close. my mom told me about how sad she was when i left for ucsd, and now i'll be closer to home. she made me feel better, especially by just listening. =*) and telling me how much she wanted to cook for me. haha... gosh, i can't believe i'm like this! i had no idea it would be like this.

ucsd... the estranged, seemingly secluded, huge university. me, an anonymous face among the crowd. who would have imagined that i would develop such an attachment to such an institution?? but i think about it and it's not so much the university itself... it's the people and the experiences that have come along with them. it's not the academics i'll miss, but rather the life outside of that. i've grown so much, i know i have. everything was a learning experience. but now that i'm graduating? i never thought it would be this hard... life is weird.

i just wrote a whole shitload and my computer literally died on me. it just died. i don't know what's wrong with it but it's NOT COOL. =( maybe it's all the dust it collected. well i cleaned it all out. maybe it's overheating. i dunno computers are mean and unpredictable!!!

basically what i wrote was that i kicked ass on my final project today, along with mayrin, bob, and brandi. we inarguably deserve nothing less than an A. we had long nites but it was worth it. =) my last official class was today. so far as lectures go, i'm DONE. now i've just got on more final to go, which is due monday afternoon, and i'm completely done... i'm very sad and nostalgic, but all of this has not quite kicked in just yet. i still can't believe nor understand where those 4 years have gone. i'm going to miss my friends dearly, especially my roommates. everyone has been so genuinely good to me. all i can say is that i'm simply... sad.

i'm slowly leaving my roles here at ucsd and passing on the torch(es). despite my sadness, i am feeling very assured and comforted by my friends. jasmine will do an awesome job as APSA Outreach Coordinator. =) i know she will. i have so much faith in her she can't possibly comprehend. she's my almost twin with her b-day being right after mine, she'll be TAing a TEP class (most likely!), she's going to be a teacher, and just... it's awesome. i hope she joins me up at ucla next fall! as for richard, i know he will do an awesome job as SIORC rep. i am at much ease that he is such a responsible and cooperative and diligent person! he's totally down to do whatever, even if he doesn't know exactly what it is he's doing. how cool is that. =) SIORC will be ok. and ian! filling in my shoes as TEP 138 TA. =) i have become quite attached to the job... i know u will learn a great deal through this experience, just as i have. remember i'll be here for u, so please continue to bug me on IM! go out there and teach them ucsd students about the charter school way of life! and last but absolutely not the least... susan u don't understand how relieved i am to have found someone to pick up where i'll be leaving off with lil dale. he needs so much support and understanding. look beyond his ADD, b/c that's just a label. the two years i have tutored him have been nothing short of adventurous. this kid is amazing. u will be blown away by him.. he's soooo witty and just plain hilarious =) i'm not ready to leave him. that is going to be the hardest. but knowing that u will be there for him makes me feel that much more at ease. u will find yourself immediately a part of their family... of all the things i'm sad to leave behind, it's him.

i really don't know how to feel right now. i don't want to leave. i almost wish i had chosen ucsd for grad school instead. but i will NOT REGRET MY DECISION. who knows what lies for me out at UCLA? i owe it to myself. but in the meantime... i'll just sulk a lil more and dwell in my nostalgia....

i just realized.... my undergrad career is over in LESS THAN A WEEK. i only have two "real" classes, one of the finals is tomorrow and it's a group presentation, while the other final is a take-home final due monday. i'm DONE after MONDAY. O_O how can this be? way too soon. everything is happening a lil too fast. i'm really starting to feel sad. a bit relieved, but mostly sad. =(

not to mention, tonight is my last section. =( my last TEP section EVER! i am retiring as a TA for this class FOREVER. two years.... just gone that fast. and i just found someone to take over my position as a tutor for lil Dale. for those of u at apsa banquet, it was the kid that did the video tribute for me. hehee.. i've been a part of their family now for the past two years, and now i'm leaving. at least i know that he and his brother will be left in good academic hands! i'm so sad! =*( .... *sniff* really though, ucsd has been good to me. ok, well not the institution itself, but the PEOPLE. u guys ROCK. i love everyone.

APSA... u guys are amazing. u all blow me away. i can't believe how often i just find myself sitting there just looking at u guys and already missing you. what have u guys done to me?? each and every one of u is so awesome in your own way. i love u guys so much i can't express it enough. thanx for the journal, beza. y'all better sign it!!! it's a pseudo-yearbook, only, there are no pictures. APSA LOVE. =) u guys rock.

my best friend left me!!!!
left me for europe, that is. that pooper. she left today and is spending a month there. ask me if i'm jealous, go ahead. seriously though, this seems to be the summer of europe. lotsa ppl i know are going there. anyone else gonna be there first two weeks of sept? jason and i will be there, but at least he's been there before! anyone have any tips or pointers for me? i'm aiming for holland, belgium, paris, and hopefully london! anyone know cheap rates? do i need an int'l ID card? know cheap hotels? help!

gooOOoOooOOoooOoooo~ LAKERS!!!! =)

watched a play in LA last nite called Achievers, about 5 Asian-Americans:
Review of the play from somewhere:
"[Achievers is] a play brought to life by Imaneshi, playwright Michael
Golamco, and a host of other close-knit, mostly UCLA grads. Achievers,
which premieres tonight at the Century City Playhouse, shadows five
freshly-evicted Asian American friends in their post-college years,
unleashed into the turbulent world of West Los Angeles. In a play that
loops and interweaves situations and relationships, the cast of five
must deal with their private insecurities, social identities, and racial
disparity in ways that are sometimes poignant, sometimes dramatic, and
sometimes damned funny."

basically it kicked ass and u can check out the people and their projects at propergander.net!

also i feel like an idiot because i was stranded with my car in irvine with my car keys in SD. lovely me. =(

apsa grad banquet
last nite i really had some genuine fun, not that i didn't before! i can't believe the grad banquet has already come and gone... it was really nice seeing everyone all dressed up and so pretty, and all of us celebrating together. first and foremost, congrats to the grad banquet committee for putting in so many months, weeks, and hours into the event. it was a nite definitely worth waiting for. thank u to my friends for coming out to support me, and thank u to jason for having some major balls. not literally. hahahha.. sorry i had to say it. but yes, takes a tremendous amount of guts to have gone up in front of everyone and say that things he said! =) save for the few jumbled up of facts, i know it was due to nervousness. =) thank u again, jason. oh yeah and we matched quite nicely, and ppl noticed! woo hooo~ i've never matched with my date like that before. hehe.. it's fun! and yeah, so i guess my dress wasn't that skanky after all. to ME it was since it was strapless. i got lotsa compliments, but everyone looked nice last nite!! i especially am proud of my cost-efficient bracelets. went to a fabric store, bought a couple yards of fabric-string thingie bobbers and tied them around my wrist. hey man, if it works and it costs u 3 bux, why not?? no way was i going to buy accessories that cost more than my dress.

a number of times throughout the nite i would just sit or stand there and take in the moment. as corny as that seems, that's really what i did. the ppl i have gotten to know through apsa....they really blow me away. when it comes down to work, we're all on it. when it comes to having fun, that's what we're all about. =) i'm already being nostalgic. thank u for all the cool gifts we seniors got. a stole, an apsa photo calendar, certificates, and street signs! and i'm glad everyone enjoyed our jackass video so much! hehee.. we really went all out to give u guys some laughs. ooh~ i hope to see everyone at the commencement ceremonies!!!

THURGOOD MARSHALL COLLEGE. Sat, June 15, 2002. 9:00am. RIMAC Field.

just show up and support! i'm actually going to get recognized for a scholarship. haha how cool is that?? thanx to alex, once again. if u guys can, please come out and support, it would mean a great deal to me. at the same time, i know how boring and tiresome they can be, so i won't be surprised if u can't make it. plus there are so many other awesome ppl walking, so it's not even about me. only one more week of instruction left... the countdown is really on a roll now. =*(