yo yo, check it. my name is janet lee and i just got stung by a bee...

i forgot to mention i got stung by a bee for the first time yesterday. it was hanging out in the sleeve of my jacket for a couple hours before it finally decided to let me know with a rude awakening that it was present. it must have snuck in when i had left my jacket on the grass field during soccer. my friend pulled over while i freaked out. good thing i wasn't driving that day. and DAMN the PAIN...!

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whenever people ask me how i am, i always just respond with "tired." it's true. i'm just always freakin tired!! i pull myself in too many ways. i wonder if it's a coping mechanism of mine to just remain hella busy so i don't have to feel alone. my roomie is not often home, i'm single, i'm still working on calling up friends to hang out... but this busy-ness is negatively affecting my body. as much as my mind and spirit are up for everything, my body is just pleading for rest. i take on random things like phone banking, speaking at an angelides campaign, just accepted to serve on the host committee for KRC (korean resource center)'s fundraiser dinner, phone conferences, chaperoning the ucla trick-or-treating event, i can't even think of what else. on top of serving on practically every committee that exists at my school site. additionally, dealing with family stuff. parents found out i got into some scuffle with the law, after opening the letter from the city attorney. my brother and his stuff. i worry, i care, i'm all over. and through this all i ask myself, am i offering my best to my students? or am i shortchanging them? i just know that i, as well as my roommate, need to take some time for ourselves. chill, vegetate, watch friends and heroes. on friday nite i DID go out with a friend to watch yo yo ma, cellist extraordinaire, at the disney concert hall. WOW. a beautiful, relaxing, and fun nite.

what i need is to learn to say no to more work. i also need to figure out, understand, and accept some other stuff happening simultaneously in my own personal life. shit's weird. timing has everything to do with life stuff. but u know, through it all, i can confidently say i'm good. i just miss certain things that i used to have (namely cuddling). =) i'm a cancer, what can i say-- hard shell on the outside, but really i'm a soft mushy mess on the inside.

GGGOOOOOAAAAAAALLLLLLLL~!!!!

i really do love futbol. i look forward to every sunday and i can appreciate the beauty of a large grass field. it's especially satisfying to make goals, of course. but i think it definitely serves as my weekly stress reliever. i get to yell to my heart's content. =)

well, i picked up a DVD of the sept. 28 rally. it's a montage of the various news reports on the historic, largest civil disobedience in l.a. i do believe there is a 2 second shot of my rear as i get handcuffed. it's hard to tell but i think it's me. looks like my jeans, my sweater, and my hands (i paused it to get a better look).

i took the metro rail for the first time. took it from downtown to the civic center. it's fast! someday i will take it to work. it would require, however, a hop on the bus, to the metro rail, transfer to a different rail line, then a final bus hop to the intersection where my school is at. am i that bold? is there a designated dont-drive-your-car day? speaking of public transportation, when i landed in sacramento for a conference several weeks ago, i took a taxi for the first time in america. HELLo! just to be driven to a place 20 min away it cost $40!!! WOW. good thing i'll be reimbursed by ucla... we have some serious public transportation issues. big ups to bus riders union for doing the work they do.

am i living in the 80s?

some uninformed writing: http://www.dailybruin.ucla.edu/news/articles.asp?id=38302

too much takes a toll

my body is crying for help. i need to ease my schedule. this is crazy. i can't keep on like this. teach, attend meetings, more meetings, rally, facilitate meeting, phonebank, conference, futbol, training, march, teach, meeting, conference, meeting... it's ridiculous. sickness i guess is the only way to get the message through to me. what am i doing to myself?!?

i realize everytime i say i will write more about a topic on my blog, i really don't. i have more thoughts about sept 28 and the arrest. i got a DVD of all the news shots covering the event if anyone wants to watch it (does it sound that interesting?).

having two back-to-back weekends of going to the bay has also taken a toll on me. although it was well worth it to attend the teachers 4 social justice conference. i was able to reconnect with linda christensen of rethinking schools, and finally met her hubby bill bigelow. oh, i also need some good recommendations and resources for clubs in SF is anyone can steer me that way.

tonite i took a trip back down memory lane and watched my former korean dance academy perform at the ford amphitheatre. GOSH i MISS it!! the 3-drum dance routine is still the same, which i perform from time to time. the fan dance is the same too. but man there are these other dances that teacher modernized and brought up with the times. there is this side of me that just calls me to korean dance. i'm glad that in the least i've rejoined a drumming group and have performed at a number of rallies and marches. it's nice to be a part of something cultural and political at the same time. i think in time, though, i'm gonna have to fill the void of wanting to dance...