what's going on?!?!

i don't want drama and i don't want ish to be crazy. ARGHGHH!!!

happy birthday to grassroots organizer grandma kim! we had a bday celebration for her at andy's/dae-han's pad and watched an AMAZING film called "welcome to dongmakgol." a story of the korean people, from the people's point of view, in war. north and south have to find a way to come together. a beautifully-made film. and the way the movie takes u through humor and extreme sadness.. it's insanity. can't say more or else i'll give it away. watch it.

over the weekend i finally got myself to fry's to buy a wireless router. i love refurbished stuff there! so cheap! (my photo printer was refurbished from fry's. great deal.) got a netgear router for only $20! reg. $50. cool. got myself a rug as well from ikea. simple and functional. thanks to joe for accompanying me and making the day enjoyable and full of laughs! on saturday i attended a gathering of some awesome womyn and watched a powerful documentary. =) thanks to lisa for that. in the afternoon-evening i took a carload of my students to the El Sereno Community Garden fundraiser event. got a personal garden tour, planted pea seeds and took them home in little pots, bought some stuff, got myself an eastside cafe shirt, ate tostadas and drank champurrado (it was a COLD nite!), and watched actual footage from oaxaca. man... then had an interesting conversation with my kids about war during the car ride back.

that nite some friends and i hit up little temple bar for the 4th anniversary party of descarga. i had no idea hella BRU folks were going to be there! jam packed party, a little too crowded for comfort but fun nonetheless! i love dancing. i need to go more often but have to secure myself a dancing partner. i'm still too freaked out to dance with strangers. will i ever outgrow that?

sunday was, of course, FUTBOLLLLL!!! no goal(s) this week. but i sure got a lot of bumps and bruises. i don't know what happened. but it was filled with laughter and good times so it was greeaatt! afterwards, a newly formed korean drumming group got together for the first time yesterday nite. it's cool to be part of something so new and help shape the direction of the group. i respect these folks and have found a solid group of sisters to solidify relationships with. and through drumming no less!! life is good. =) a little confusing at times, and it has its sometimes sad and lonely points... but overall things are truly nice. i really can't complain!.. other than i'm too busy. and this other major thing happening within my family that is affecting me a great deal but i'm trying to find ways to handle it the best way i can. (ambiguity is a skill that shines through my blogs.)

eaten alive!

my kids really have a knack for tearing subs apart. my sub on friday just had a ball with my students. and the sub today was just a whole 'nuther level. i doubt she'll be returning to my class. yes, i have certain students whose respect you have to earn. otherwise, you're just another adult. it took me well over a month with larvontae alone, but we've established a relationship and he's quite changed. not completely, of course, cuz he'll revert back to his old self whenever there's a sub. so will many of my other students. my drama queen turned on her water faucet and everything today. she knows crying don't work with me. *sigh* hearing the report back of my class is almost as tiring as if i had experienced it myself!

three day weekend! what to do with myself tomorrow?!?! run errands... =) yay. sleep in possibly? go out? i have soccer to always took forward to! last week i made a well-needed goal, and the week before that was amazing as we displayed the first header assist to a header goal by yours truly!! *crowd cheers* i can make goals fairly consistently, but i can't dribble. so ironic.

i haven't written while sleepy in a long time. during today's conference i did! it cracks me up to look at the way i write when i'm falling asleep. hehee... i think i'm starting to really miss male company... =/

HOW THE HELL DID SCHWARZENEGGER WIN?!?! AGAIN??!???? and the freakin propositions?!?! the only thing i have really to be happy for is the defeat of 85. other than that, i am seriously in a confused state of red (apparently). our country steps it up, but then our own state...? so disappointed.

itchy itchy makes me feel b----

my bee sting has gotten to the point of itchiness. it really isn't any fun. in better news, i've been taking time more for myself. not that much more, just not loading every single day with some kind of meeting. it was thursday that i didn't have a meeting or function of some kind. it felt good! so i decided to go out that nite on dia de los muertos. self-help graphics hosted an awesome event with a chicano band, quetzal, which is one of my favorites! and yesterday i attended a very inspiring fundraiser session. the one pebble (handol) campaign is trying to buy a building for a koreatown community center. they've raised 75G so far, but they need to get to 400. spear-headed by folks from KIWA, i really think this can happen. i'm excited to see the day... =) i've already marked the stone that will be part of the future project. and $20 a month really isn't much.

my life is a confusing mess but i think i can simplify things. thank goodness i have a vacation coming up this winter break with old college buddies!

MEOW

thanks to bobby for this very laughable link: http://208.116.9.205/10/graphics/pics/pictures_cats.jpg

and if u haven't checked this out yet, it's a MUST:
www.meatrix.com

update:
i need strength.